Zindagi....Kaisi hai paheli

This is not the first time that I'm in pain .. but probably its the worst chapter of my life ...or ..may be not ...I don't know whats their in store for me in future .... whatever .. but the fact is I want to scream .. to cry .. to cry aloud .. but I can't do that ...
The worst part of this ongoing tragedy is that I can't share it with anyone. I'm not sure exactly whose fault it is .. but sure I'm part responsible ... in hindsight I feel I always ran away from my responsibilities on this front .. whatever ... the fact is that I'm finding myself unable to salvage the situation... the damage done is irreparable ...

Considering that only a few weeks ago I was so happy that after years of frustration and agony of working in a PSU without any job satisfaction, I'd resigned from job and was about to begin a new chapter in my life ... Everything seemed to falling in place...and then all of a sudden my life went topsy turvy ...

Zindagi .. kaisi hai paheli hai .....